This statement really called to me. Something primal inside of me will not settle for unhappiness at the price of a few nicer things. I have always been the kind to humble myself and do what I find happiness in and see if it takes me to where I can prosper.
I have been at my current call center job for 8 months now. The first 2 were great. The next 2 were ok and I started to see the difference in my energy level. The 2 after that I started to really dislike what I do.. it just doesn’t resinate with me and I have no motivation to do the things my coaches and managers are so gung ho about. The last couple months have been a mind game to wake up every morning and force myself to think positive. I am actively on the jub hunt. Yes… Again.
I can’t say enough good things about my co-workers and the staff overall. There are hundreds of us in the building and there’s not one person that really rubbed me the wrong way. Everyone is great and I will miss a lot of people’s energy around my work space when I leave. But in this huge corporation, overall I am just an employee number. One of any dispensable people that sits with the headset on all day.
And if I may get to the real reason… I work with billing. People all too often yell at me for things I did not do, blame the delinquent status of their account on me, tell me sobb stories to get what they want when the stories are just made up, complete BS, and talk over me like I am not even a human. I love helping people, but collection work is NOT FOR ME.
I love getting older because little by little I am finding what makes my heart sing and I know I am on the right track. My heart sings with the thought of walking out of call center purgatory and into a lower paying job that gives me room to think, and allows me to actually smile at people again. Can’t wait.
Currently, I am scheduled to interview next week for a position I have wanted since I moved to this city. It would be a 25% pay cut, and that’s harsh on the pockets… but when I looked at my budget I realized I am just spending a few hundred dollars a month on nothing. If I can pull that spending in a little tighter, I won’t even notice the difference because all my regular living expenses are still taken care of.
The pay-off is worth the pay-cut. I would be doing something I really wanted to for quite some time. I will get to spend evening home and with the ones I care about. I can just feel the stress starting to roll of my shoulders with these thoughts. Wishful thinking… it is within reach.
Once I have a new job I plan to dive into other areas on this blog like love, numerology, travel, spirituality, God, gay rights, the modern age… Stay tuned.
I appreciate the ‘ear’ and hope you can relate and get something out of my blog, if not just the feeling of knowing you’re not the only one that goes through this crazy thing we call life.
God Bless and see you all soon
