Stepping into my shoes.
You have to admit at some point you were just a wee bit intimidated at putting your thoughts to a page that the world has access to, no? Well, excuse me, sir. I am.
I’m getting over it. I finally see that in order for me to have the things I want in the future, I have to put them there one decision at a time. Somehow this new blog is connected with the future. I feel like I have a voice now. The world can hear me and read my new notebook. 
I’ve kept a physical journal since I was about 10. You know…those composition books with the squiggly black pattern on the cover. I don’t know why those, but I always felt when I was young that there was no compromise, it had to be the composition book, or nothing.
Who am I, you wonder? I’m just like you probably. I’m a traveller, a child at heart, an explorer, a goofball, a writer, a thinker, a lover, a good friend, a coffee junkie, a sister, a granddaughter, a great cook, a sing-at-the-top-of-my-lungs when I hear a favorite song in the car person, an animal adorer, a book lover, a green advocate, a spiritual seeker, and now, your newest blog buddy.
I just had to throw this one out in the wind and hope that there was a current to take it up and away. I don’t have to see where it goes, just get it out there.
When I was in the first grade, I had a similar thing happen. We had a contest at school and each kid was supposed to write their name and the school’s name and phone number, with a request to call- on an index card. Then, we were to tie that index card to a helium filled balloon. There was a prize for the first person’s balloon to be found. I have no idea who won. But I do remember the feeling of letting that balloon go. Its the same feeling you get when you play the lottery but quite a bit more magical.
I didn’t know what would happen to my balloon. I didn’t know if it would just get stuck in some random tree in maybe Montclair, NJ. I didn’t have to know. I let that sucker go and knew if it was my lucky day I’d win something. And if not, hey I gave it a shot.
I think we should all live like that. If you don’t do it, there’s just no chance for you to get whats coming to you. Even minimal effort sometimes will change your mind and maybe make you want to put more in…which turns into getting more out. So the next time you look at something and think of saying its not for you, or why would I want to do that, or I’ll never be chosen…think again. Give it a whirl. Try on some new shoes. You just never know.
